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Christmas is a day where families get together and share what is important with each other. Im grateful for what I have. I know I complain a lot, but when I do, I think about the people who have had it worse or who ARE having it worser than me. I love you mom and dad !


I had time to think about what has happend in the course of 5 months. Times flying by so fast, I still remember walking across stage, seconds away from receieving my diploma to graduate 8th grade. Im not gonna lie, It doesnt feel like Im 15. Sometimes, I wish I was older. More mature, more sophisticated. Im not ready to take on full responsibility for my actions. Not yet.  


After having a nice chat with a close friend today, I brought myself to think about my friends. Whos worth keeping, and who I know will be friends with me for a long long time. I dont know that answer yet. I just want people to get to know me for me. Not for how I look but for how I act, how I think.
Briana and Vivian came over today and I showed them around Westlake. haha got home and ate. Then rented movies and got chills sent down my spines watching 'The Stepfather' Its currently 2:58 A.M. right now, and Im not tired at all. 

For the first time, I sang a couple of my original songs to Bri and Vivian. They seemed a bit surprised.. Dont know what that meant, but I think they enjoyed it since they kepy wanting me to sing this one song over and over again.

Everytime I write, I never finish what I started. I dont know if its cause Im afraid of continuing, or If im just lazy. When I write, I write about how I feel, things Ive been through. And occasionally, random things like cherry chap stick, or orange peels. Those probably dont even count. But I kinda like it that way. It makes what I write a bit different from others. A song unfinished isnt at all bad. It might have a good effect to it too. Until I write a FULL finished song, I'll let you know :). But until then, im keeping it  short and simple. 

Merry Christmas everyone :) Have a good one.

Carmen